The Word

Focus

We are remodeling two houses and trying to sell two others.
That alone would be enough really on top of homeschooling and Damien's business but we are also being sued and pregnant and trying to hang on until our teenager turns eighteen.
God help us.
Where did the simple life go?!
How weak I feel when my happiness and joy becomes circumstantial.
I just can't seem to manage my happy go lucky frame of mind with all this chaos swirling.
I get sucked in and tackled down into an inescapable gloom.
And I wonder after trying to pray for help and reading the scriptures and waiting patiently for this to be lifted what I shall do next?
How will I get back to the light my soul aches for?
Then I remember that I am supposed to give thanks in all things.
When I am afraid,
when I don't have the answers,
when I am tired,
when I am angry,
when I just can't get off the couch,
Give Thanks.
I have failed to obey and it has cost me joy.
Focusing on the minutia and it really is in light of eternity
is self destructive.
I dig around and find my journal of thanks.
I start writing it all down again.
The littlest of things that God blesses me with each moment.
I stop asking for things.
Day by day the light has begun to warm my face.
Whatever we focus on becomes magnified
and has the power to change our reality.